Fuckin art...on a deadline

ya ya i know: "If you are going into this profession you will always have deadlines. Get used to it". I know. But I have always been a "at my own whim" artist! A deadline seems like a pair of hands slowly closing around the larynx of my creativity. If I am going to produce art (much less it will cost me money) it better be something that i have to back %100 and time limits seem to make this impossible. Getting everyone together at the same time, getting the space in which i need to shoot, making my provisions and meditation available...WOOF! Kills me. GOD WILLING Friday will go through and I will have to compromise nothing.

Diptychs (or dicktychs)

We I have waited a while to to do a bondageish shoot and there is no time like the present (unless its the past or future). With a little help from Suzie's (non stick bondage tape $10, go pick it up kids) which is destined to go to good use after the shoot, I wrangled my best friend Vanessa and shoved her insecurities out the fucking window. O yes, and my boyfriend Lucky...but who hasn't seen him naked? ; ) Was VERY rushed with editing but overall pretty satisfied. Enjoy

Terrorism

Please

Rest in What I Want

We Are Bound

Credits

Before and After (how very original)

WOOF! Time consuming. Heinous. Incredibly theraputic. I really enjoyed the process of nursing back a past moment to full vitality. My music in my ears and healing tools in my hands (as well as some time). As a first time Photoshop user this has been quite amazing to see just a few things that it is capable of. I hope my mother likes the finished product. 

Oma in the Snow

 

The Unhealthy Artist

    When an artist is not well, should his art suffer for it? I find this to be (sadly) true. Of course I can only speak for myself, but as I am faulty in my health; be it emotional, physical, mental, or spiritual, I find that my creative spirit gives up.

     I know that God/dess has gifted me with an innate sensativity to beauty and art and given me abilities in said area, so would I be defiling that gift when I do not use it simply because I am too tired? I feel that artists are constantly expected to create, though sometimes we just need to do nothing but exist and let the art come naturally...in its own time.

Lone

Fighting Imperfection

Well I must say...this hockney project is tapping something inside of me that I have ignored for a very long time: my fear of imperfection. The fact that things do not line up perfectly shakes my insides like nothing else, and what an irritant that can be in the world of art seeing art itself is imperfection.

Ya ya ya I'm sure this is a subconscious awakening of sorts but that is not the point. In order to be rid of unhealthy feelings, we must first apply and excercise these fears in small ways. I shall start by loving the finished product.

Puddle

 

 

 

 

The Morning After

Alter

The sacrifice made for this class

Seeing as Intro to Digital Photography is my only class lined up for this semester, you would think that my mind would be at ease and anticipation would be high. Yet again God/Goddess has forced me to do something which He/She knows I am horrible at...decision making. It appears that my new Dialectical Behavioral Therapy class (true therapy people...true therapy) is every Monday from 4-6pm, completely conflicting with my photography class. Not only is this a decision that must be made quickly, but it is one that will indeed effect my surroundings.

Now I am no stranger to the world of therapy and must admit, am more advanced than most of my peers, but photography is semi new and exciting for me! Do I really need to sit through one more class that teaches me the basics of saying "no" when asked to do something I don't want to? Or how to better improve myself through the use of relaxation techniques and breathing? I think not...PHOTOGRAPHY IT IS! I just hope they allow us to have cameras in the Asylum...

Sea Creature

Pumpkin Transformation

Spell