Fuckin art...on a deadline

ya ya i know: "If you are going into this profession you will always have deadlines. Get used to it". I know. But I have always been a "at my own whim" artist! A deadline seems like a pair of hands slowly closing around the larynx of my creativity. If I am going to produce art (much less it will cost me money) it better be something that i have to back %100 and time limits seem to make this impossible. Getting everyone together at the same time, getting the space in which i need to shoot, making my provisions and meditation available...WOOF! Kills me. GOD WILLING Friday will go through and I will have to compromise nothing.